“It is insane doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result.”
I was trying kickflips the other day and then I kept on putting my front foot down before the board landed on the ground. I think everyone kept saying to flick out not down, and to jump higher. And I kept on asking myself why I can’t land it when literally everyone tells me what I’m doing wrong and I’m just not comprehending what they’re saying. It’s dumb how I expect to land it even though I keep doing the thing that made me not land it yk.
And it’s another thing actually committing to it and forrealz doing it instead of like just knowing what I have to do in the back of my head and not acting on it.
Like, I know what to do. I just have to actually do it. Like no balls actually do it.
OK anyways, even though that was for my kickys, I was thinking about another aspect of my life too.
I’ve been feeling on and off mentally lately. Feeling like shit and then feel a little bit ok, then my thoughts get ahead of me so I feel like shit again, but the sun comes out so I feel ok. IT’S AN UGLY CYCLE.
Then a few months ago I had a little bit of reflecting and focusing on myself and bro I realized that the difference between when I actually felt good consistently and when I haven’t is that
1. I’ve been hydrating myself (at least 3 full bottles of water)
2. Consistent with my gratitude
3. Catching the sun
4. Exercising / Going for walks
6. Limiting my screen time
7. Talk to myself nice
9. Eating healthier foods
10. Set goals and work towards it
So like now that I know what to do, I just have to do it to feel good right? Yea but that’s the thing. I haven’t. Is it laziness? Motivation? Naur. I don’t know.
But I don’t want to feel like shit and it’s not gonna change if I keep my old ways.
When I know the answer and how to combat this, I’ll address it in another blog post.
K bye cya on the next one.