insanity

2/30

“It is insane doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result.”

I was trying kickflips the other day and then I kept on putting my front foot down before the board landed on the ground. I think everyone kept saying to flick out not down, and to jump higher. And I kept on asking myself why I can’t land it when literally everyone tells me what I’m doing wrong and I’m just not comprehending what they’re saying. It’s dumb how I expect to land it even though I keep doing the thing that made me not land it yk.

And it’s another thing actually committing to it and forrealz doing it instead of like just knowing what I have to do in the back of my head and not acting on it.

Like, I know what to do. I just have to actually do it. Like no balls actually do it.

OK anyways, even though that was for my kickys, I was thinking about another aspect of my life too.

I’ve been feeling on and off mentally lately. Feeling like shit and then feel a little bit ok, then my thoughts get ahead of me so I feel like shit again, but the sun comes out so I feel ok. IT’S AN UGLY CYCLE.

Then a few months ago I had a little bit of reflecting and focusing on myself and bro I realized that the difference between when I actually felt good consistently and when I haven’t is that

1. I’ve been hydrating myself (at least 3 full bottles of water)

2. Consistent with my gratitude

3. Catching the sun

4. Exercising / Going for walks

5. Journalling

6. Limiting my screen time

7. Talk to myself nice

8. Meditate

9. Eating healthier foods

10. Set goals and work towards it

So like now that I know what to do, I just have to do it to feel good right? Yea but that’s the thing. I haven’t. Is it laziness? Motivation? Naur. I don’t know.

But I don’t want to feel like shit and it’s not gonna change if I keep my old ways.

When I know the answer and how to combat this, I’ll address it in another blog post.

K bye cya on the next one.